I gave him all of me.
Parts left untouched.
Places never explored.
His body isn't mine.
All the woman who came before me.
All of the woman who'd come after me.
But I don't care.
Push it aside.
Pretend that I'm his.
For this one moment,
To feel what's it's like to be with the one I've always loved.
My heart felt the choices he had to make.
Ah, Liam. Is he the villain or the man that we all secretly want to date? He has that bad boy appeal, but just enough warmth and love that keeps you drawn in.
I wrote him in a way that readers wouldn’t hate him, but rather hate the things he chose to do, and ultimately the person he becomes. Being a forensic psychologist, I love getting into the heads of serial killers, the mentally ill, and trying to figure out how they would think, what they would do. I did that with Liam, trying to peel apart his layers. He had his demons, just like other characters in the book, but he was unable to see beyond his painful past to fight through them.
I did that with Liam, trying to peel apart his layers.
This is another reason why I write in shifting POVs. It makes it easier for me to get “into the heads” of my characters. I cried writing Liam. My heart felt the choices he had to make, because each act he did, I did. I felt it. I struggled with the decisions I made with him but they all made sense in who he was as a person and the love he felt for Madison. I know sometimes we read novels, especially romance, and wonder how these characters fall in love so quickly. That insta-love can be annoying at times but with Liam, and his love and care for Madison, from the beginning just seemed to make sense. He saw in her what he saw in himself: a past that he’d rather forget; a father who failed at his job in many ways; and a radiation for a career where he could save people and try to repent from the thoughts that plagued him.
He saw in her what he saw in himself: a past that he’d rather forget.
I wrote Liam with qualities and faults that an everyday person would have, but yet, we still get love, don’t we? We still have people feel bad for something that has happened to us or feel for us when we make a poor choice or do something wrong. I wanted to bring light to the fact that not all those individuals who struggle with mental illness, struggle from pasts that haunt them, can just forget, especially without help. While Liam was very much made up, the power of love was not. Liam loved Madison so much that he was able to see snip-its of what he was destined to become. He was able to make a choice, a choice that allowed him to take control, where he often believed he couldn’t.
It's a new day and another cover reveal for me! I mentioned on FB and Twitter that I was trying out writing a m/m romance for the Trade Me Collection at Hot Tree Publishing. I know what you're thinking..a romantic suspense/thriller author writing a m/m romance? I thought the same thing when I wrote for the anthology but my story, Always and Forever, was chosen so I figured, what did I have to lose with giving it a try?
Fix You will be released August 23rd and Beautiful Sacrifice, the 2 in the Thin Red Lines Series will be released August 27th (Que my anxiety)-just kidding-kind of. I've been editing two books at once and writing two others (The 3rd book in the Thin Red lines series and another for the Trade Me Collection because I fell in love with writing m/m romance). This is on top of writing my Literature Review for my dissertation ( I must admit this isn't as fun). I'm trying to find balance and think I've gotten a routine down enough where I'm not glued to my laptop all day. Although, my laptop is still an extension of my body between teaching and writing.
Also, I will be posting my signing schedule for 2017. I'm only scheduled for one so far due to some personal things this upcoming year which I will share in another post. :) No, I am not having another baby (haha).
Be sure to follow the releases. I loved the BETA feedback and so glad they all loved the stories. Thank you to all of them for making sure my stories are the best they can be!