So, last time I was on this website I had sweaty palms, my throat was dry, and I'm pretty sure I had a panic attack. There's something about bearing your entire soul in a book, letting the secret you've kept from pretty much everyone, and then deciding to share it. (Yeah I wrote a book without telling anyone because I'm that girl). Writing for me is therapeutic. It makes me feel at ease and stress-free and has become my escape from the countless hours of grading papers, writing papers and trying to get that lil' ol' thing called a Ph.D. Don't get me wrong, it wasn't on a whim to publish the book. I got some good feedback from my best friend who said I should "go for it" and self-publish. She helped me bring the book together, and since she is an English major, she taught me a lot about how horrible my grammar is! (Says the college professor) In my defense, I teach psychology, not English so to my current editor, if you're reading this and correcting all my grammar mistakes, I'm sorry! :)
Well, I did just that. I went for it. Beautiful Masterpiece was self-published October 2015 and out for less than a month when I started getting emails from publishing companies to publish it. Hence the title of this post, pinch me is this my life? So I shifted through the offers and chose the one I thought was best for me and whatever creative ideas I had and a company that I saw a positive future with. That company was Hot Tree Publishing. I reached out to a few blogging friends to get their feedback on Hot Tree, and only positive feedback was given. But nonetheless, it's scary signing on the dotted line and handing over your "baby" to be edited. But honestly, it has been an amazing experience and such a growth process for me. I feel stronger as a writer, more confident and comfortable in my own skin. (I must admit though when people still ask me about my book I clam up and get all nervous). But I am working on that! Promise.
So, I'm not sure what the purpose of this post is. Updating, sure. But maybe if I can inspire just one person who thinks they can't do it or hears that little self-doubt that I do way to often telling me that I am putting myself out there for tons of judgement and critics. But the reality is, not everyone is going to like what I write or what I have to say, and that's okay because I did it. I published a book and honestly how many people can say they did that?
So go on over to Goodreads and add it to your TBR list. February 20th will be here before you know it and I hope you all decide to give my book a read.